Chris and Sue working hard at making bows Karl and Larry...nuf said The "Colors of Cancer" Flags
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Wow, the one thing that made us work as a couple has just been tampered with...This sucks - it really does. First the girls mess with my trust in them and now Kevin. I don't even know what i feel anymore. My suspicions of him drinking again have been confirmed. Guess i should have paid more attention. Denial is a good thing. When you can no longer deny it, then reality sets in and hey - IT SUCKS! I feel alone. i don't want to be home. Im scared. Guess its time to stop joking about going to church to learn how to forgive... I guess its time to do it.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving!! I hope everyone reading this had as good of a Thanksgiving as I did. It was just...relaxing! I started the day off with Cinnimon rolls - and ended it with Dutch Apple Pie! In between those 2 delicious treats were Turkey and all the fixings! The table was set for 3 but only 2 of us sat down to eat. Nicole ended up spending the whole day at Johns...Amber was spose to be at her mothers...haven't heard from her so i'm hoping so. Watched the Lions lose...no big shocker there. and am now trying to stay up to watch CSI. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
If you copy and then paste into the address you can view the pictures of Jills wedding...The first one is mine, the second one is matts brothers! Enjoy!!
Oh my goodness what a weekend!!! Between teens and working and stess and teens... I'm about ready to - O I don't know - go sky diving?? yea, anyone who knows me knows thats the last thing on earth I'd want to do... but that actually sounds good to me after this weekend. I'm not to sure about what exactly happened. I know i grounded the girls and i know my life got turned around all in one day... I understand being mad. I understand using digs to hurt others feelings. I understand being hurt. I don't understand the lengths the girls went to to get the best of me! I don't understand lying, i don't understand why i have to keep things locked up in my own house! ESPECIALLY when its medicine that only I need! I just don't get it!!! the frustration level is at extremes...the tension is unbearable... and its only September... boy is this going to be a long year!
On a good note - made tons of money working this weekend and we have hot water once again!!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Imagine walking onto a high school football field for a Friday Night football game and see nothing but PINK!!! What a totally awesome feeling when you know that it is a fundraiser for Breast Cancer Awareness!!! The boys of the Lowell Red Arrows wanted to raise money to help their mothers, sisters, grandmothers and others affected with Breast Cancer and so they came up with this idea... their first home game - all the players in bright pink - the visiting team even wore pink socks! They honored those who have survived and those who have lost the battle. They won the game 49-0 but i really don't know if anyone noticed the final score...I know i was just in awe about the whole thing! I can't wait to find out the total amount they made for such a wonderful cause. Thank you Boys!!!
Not only will I remember this day forever because of 2001 - but also because of 2008 - the day I found out that Nicole is pregnant! It is a fact, no longer a feeling... can't wait to see if my gut is correct again on the sex of the baby (keep calling it a "her" in my minds conversations!!)
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Its been a while. The demons have settled down. School is about to start. I'm excited about that and a little nervous. I pray for patience because that is all that will get me thru. Been bringing the dogs out to the beach. They LOVE IT! My goal this week is to get the house fall cleaned. Have the week off and should be able to do it. Mostly my loft... weather is chilling out should be up there playing... haven't had the muse to do anything in so long... maybe a kick in the butt will help... we'll see... til then...
...What a beautiful day today... so I'm outside all day and just can't seem to clear my head. So much going on - I try to be happy, yet deep in my heart I know it is all wrong. Teenagers all around me are getting pregnant. Lives are changing - Mistakes are being made - and there isn't a damn thing i can do to change it... so i sit back... observe... and know that soon I will be picking up all the broken pieces. YET with just one simple decision the mistake would never be made...guess i just don't get it!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Hi there. So this is my life. I have dogs, teens and Kevin... I'm new to this blogging stuff - but hey always willing to try something new! We had a wonderful weekend this past weekend...even thought there were some issues....(we went camping)
First i got "lost" on a 2 track about 11pm... yes EXTREMELY DARK OUT! Only I wasn't really lost - but the van totally died on me, and therefore I was stranded. I wasn't alone however, Amber was with me along with all 3 dogs... and of course - yup - Terrible Phone Service! So yea was able to finally let Kevin know I was stranded and he looked and looked and looked and finally at 3:30(am) received my text that said GO TO BED! uh, yea... never was found... but the truck received much damage...5:30 I was up and ready to find SOMEONE! and did - wasn't too far off - Duffus led us straight to Kevin - yes, he (Duffus) wanted to go fishing.
So Today (Wednesday) the van finally got fixed - good thing cuz the Jeep totally blew up...was told mini vans arn't made for 2-tracking...Like that will stop me! HA!!!
Amber & Nicole (back) me & Kevin (front) in the jeep on the way to the fireworks July 4th! Hanging out getting ready for the fireworks Godiva, Duffus and Weazle 2008 Relay for Life Committee Chris, Barb, Lynn, Karl, Caylib, Eric, Sue, Larry(back row) Serena and me (sitting down) TUG OF WAR!!!
My name is Nancy. I am a wife, friend, step-mother and babysitter. I have 3 dogs - a St. Bernard - DUFFUS, a Newfoundland - GODIVA, and a teacup pomoranian - WEAZLE (her real name is Pandora) I have one step-daughter Nicole, and one rental child - Amber. They are both 17! And last but definatly not least one special person I love to death, my husband Kevin.